I loved this day from last week. After a bit of heavy rain days, the sun came out, and there were many puddles and rivers to enjoy. We have sweet playmates in our neighborhood, and they boys were enjoying racing boats and toys down the gutter river. Brooke wore these great rain pants that keep her totally dry. She just loved walking in the water, and splashing about. Kevin was content to push a boat around with a stick.
I just tried to soak it in, thinking about the simple joys of outdoor play, and the things that bring smiles to my kid's faces. Sometimes, I just don't know how to be a parent. I don't know how to discipline them, what battles to pick, and what to let go. I struggle like so many other moms out there, and then I try to pray, read, and ask for guidance. Then, I go hug them and tell them I love them. I ask them to forgive me for yelling, and for being a 'poophead', which makes them laugh. I tell them that we all need to start over sometimes, and just give more love. Then, they hug me back and completely forget whatever the struggle was, and I'm given the gift of starting over with them.
This happens over and over again. I'm so glad that they still love me, and want me to be their mom. They are my gifts.
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